![]() I want to acknowledge the fear issues that we all have and encounter with horses and our daily life. It’s okay to be afraid to do certain things with your horse. Recently, I taught a lesson to one of my more fearful students. She was very happy to trot the school horse a few laps around the arena. She had to confidently and assertively take control when he tried to stop at the gate. It was incredible progress. It took me a long time to realize that this is a big milestone with some students. I never really understood how to deal with students and their fear issues until I dealt with my own. To help me better understand my students I often relate my personal fear issues to riding. I was in a very bad car accident during winter break my senior year of college. I was driving home after a day of riding. It was one of those lessons where you just really suck. My trainer kept hollering at me to stop my horse with just my seat, and I couldn’t do it. My horse would not stop off my seat. Isn’t that the epitome of good training, the horse should listen to your seat? I felt so humbled, and embarrassed that I couldn’t make it happen – the lesson of checking the ego at the door. I know this was an exercise that Vi Hopkins tried on a lot of people. My trainer worked with Vi for a very long time. Many of his students rode with Vi over the years. She was one of those people that I would have loved to meet in life. The roads were very icy, it was cold, but I could still see the strip of pavement from the tire tracks of cars before me. I was driving in the low thirties and cars that wanted to pass me were tailgating. My tiny college car hit the black ice and floated across yellow line. I’m using the word floated because that’s what it really felt like, there was absolutely no traction. After crossing the yellow line I was t-boned by a mini-van on the passenger side. I don’t know how fast the other car was going, but my car was totaled. I don’t think people realize how wrecked up you can become from an accident at 30 miles per hour. I cleanly fractured my left femur in two places, shattered my right hand in three places, and put a few hairline fractures in other parts of my body. There was no blood. My trunk was packed with my winter break belongings and came open after the impact. The first thing I saw when I regained conscious was a man standing at the driver’s side door. As the realization of pain hit my body I could see my tall boots in the snow bank. I wondered, why were my tall boots in the snow bank? Later, the firefighters found my saddle in a tree. My accident was in a very rural area so after admitting me I had to be transferred two hours by ambulance to another hospital. It was a very long night and an even longer recovery. I spent 18 days in the hospital about 1,000 miles away from home. I grew up with divorced parents, and they were already scrapping between phone calls, so I told them both to stay home. I learned to never judge the decisions one makes in the wake of a tragedy, and I always remind myself of that when my students make decisions out of fear. After being released from the hospital I flew back to Philly in a wheelchair with a walker on my lap. I had the pleasure of flying first class for the first time ever in my life (how else do you get to the back of the plane?), and finished out my senior year of college with a wheelchair ramp to my apartment. To this day I am so grateful for my awesome professors at F&M that supported me throughout the spring semester of my senior year – and my ability to walk and ride. But the truth is, it’s still an emotional endeavor for me to drive in the winter on snow-covered roads. I’ve had far too many white-knuckle rides to the barn this winter, I even slid down a hill a few mornings ago in a nice haunches-in position. I was never the fearful type of rider, until after my accident. The first time I got on a horse after I was cleared for weight bearing I asked another student to stay there with me, “just in case.” I remember that day clearly; because that was the first day I realized how easily you could be hurt when riding a horse. I’ve tried my hardest to avoid confronting my winter driving fears. The first really bad winter since my accident I spent teaching on the Navajo reservation. Since the teachers must rent from the housing campuses on the reservation, I could get a ride to work on snowy days (and yes, this is the high desert of Arizona, so there is lots of snow). Then I avoided driving in the winter because I leased a farm with a house attached. If it was snowy I just didn’t drive anywhere. This year is different. Now I lease a facility that doesn’t have on-site housing. Somehow I made it home the other night. It took me 1.5 hours and I passed a lot of flares and cars in ditches. It wouldn’t be so bad, but my fears come rumbling to the top every time it starts to snow. Like a hint of snow – just a dusting, and I am ready to run! Sort of like riding you know – oh he flicked an ear so he’s gonna buck, right? When I start to see a spec of snow I go into panic mode. I don’t get any work done, my mind races to how it’s going to be getting home, and I call my night check/evening chores person at the slightest hint of snow. The good news, I get more writing done. The bad news, my horses don’t get worked. But it’s more complicated than that. You see, this winter I am leasing a farm that is at the top of a very big hill. It’s not just any hill; it’s a hill with a series of s-curves at the bottom and a very sharp incline. This is not a two-wheel drive hill. You must have four wheel drive and good tires. It’s not uncommon to drive by cars that are victims of the hill on a snowy day. There is a back way around the hill, but it takes about 10 minutes longer and also involves “hills”. The hill makes me a blubbering little crying shaking idiot. After a rough drive home I am mentally exhausted, shaken, and unable to focus and get work done – sort of like a bad scary ride, right? And every time I deal with this I think of my students with fear issues. I know there are a lot of books out there on how to deal with fear issues. I never really know what to say, other than words of reassurance, to the student who has their leg shaking and trembling in fear, in such a way that I can visibly see it. I try to do whatever is easiest when I see a student in that shape. Can we successfully walk a circle, a figure of eight? I also tell them to go watch videos of confident riders. After my accident one of the best things that helped me was to watch youtube videos of car accidents and pile ups due to black ice. When I couldn’t sleep and I saw my accident replay in my mind over and over again watching the videos helped me realize a traumatic accident can happen to anyone. Likewise, it’s sometimes helpful to see that a horse can cause the same problem with another rider. If you have fear issues, go watch really confident trainers and riders and note how they maintain their composure. My student with fear issues couldn’t believe how calm and centered Stephanie remained at all times if a horse acted up, had less than four feet on the ground, or bucked under saddle. If you are afraid that your horse might buck in the canter then go watch a good youtube video of a horse bucking (or tossing a wee little crow hop) in the canter with a confident rider. I’ve seen so many times a student “get” something or “understand” something by watching it visually or by seeing how someone else handles the situation. On a final note – and for all of you out there that ride with pain issues, I commend you; it’s not such an easy thing.
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Lisa Layton
1/13/2014 11:21:18 pm
What an excellent analogy ! I didn't have fear issues, but I have extra-ordinary pain, including the knowledge that any ride could be my last because of my broken neck. But I did decide if I die, it will be doing what I love to do. It does make me pull some punches, though,,,
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K
1/14/2014 08:29:53 am
So true! It is good to acknowledge that fear happens. Because the more you ignore it the worse it will be and having a trainer that understands is very helpful. It's a long road to get back to who you think you were...
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